Why do they call it Stay at Home Mom?

I was writing the last post last Wednesday when I had to dash out for a Doc appointment. I finally posted it yesterday. My new discovery is that "stay at home mom" is just a silly title. Almost as silly as "working mom". We all work, just in different areas or specialties some more frazzled than others . I was hardly home my first week "at home". Running the patriots to and from school, karate and more patriot errands. Then I was at the various stores picking up where I left off about 6 months ago with my diverse shopping list. Then one day I just hung out with my mom. I'm very blessed that I am able to still do that! Now, I am really in need of addressing our nest. I have discovered things that should have been tossed long ago. Our garage sale will hopefully happen in two weeks. Then I can start with the decorating.The craft room is last on my agenda. Then, then, then... It's an eternal to do list, but one I'm grateful to take on. I'm just happy to be home just chirping along.

Mental blurbs

This is a post I’m not certain where it will lead. After pondering many viewpoints, thoughts, opinions, desires, dreams, and stances, or whatever you want to call them, I tackled my mountain of being a stay at home mom. Then, eventually I will work towards my own business. When I say mountain I don’t mean that in a disparaging way.  I mean that in an “I’m finally feeling brave enough and well equipped to handle this” way. Yes, I stayed at home when my oldest two were little and spurts before Squeakerbeaks went to school. I just wasn’t happy or felt like I could do it. That was a major part of the frustration! How can I run a multi-state district of employees and clients, yet can’t “manage” a house of 5? Well I can. I  need to approach it in a similar way. The other major factor is that I want to. I love my little men. When one of them told me they didn’t really need me, that they were able to get along without me I realized that was wrong! Not that I want a co-dependent Momma’s boy! I want them to see me as important to their lives.  I desire to be a nurturing, available when they truly needed me, fun loving memories kind of mom. What they  were getting was a stressed out, resentful, exhausted, never able to be there for them just a M.O.M. They were starting to get crappy food again and of course it was never on a schedule. The food challenge helped to kick start the motion of meaningful mothering . I feel like the past five years have been wasted and lost. I am a lover of most things natural and cozy which that atmosphere felt lost. With back to school festivities my timing is perfect. I could dwell on the past negatives. Instead, I will look forward to the possibilities.